Journal of Belinda
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Day 1
I have started this journal, as recommended by a friend, to remind myself how I got to where I will be. I call this New World, because as much as I understand it, although the world has not changed, my perception of it has and there is no going back. I make the choices I make now and in the future, because I choose to. It is my right, regardless if I had to steal that right.
___ First order of Business: Letter to Paul, My Husband
Dear Paul, I hope this letter finds you well. I do miss you, and I understand if you are happy without me. I was not ready for you. I did love you, I still do. What I did I did for my child, and that is still true today. I can not bring myself to explain what happened, yet, but when I am ready, I am going to come get you and we are going to take care of him together. Sabrina is helping me out, she says you owe her, what ever that means. Hope to see you soon.
Belinda
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Ok, I sure learned a lot quickly. I understand what Sabrina means when she says we owe her. I do not think I can do what she wants. I hate to lie to her already but I need her help. I am sure Paul and I will find a way to pay her back. I like her but I don't want to be like her.
